Tuesday, May 27, 2008

midnight ramblings

I move to Tulsa, OK this coming Sunday for the summer. I'm starting to stress about the move. I know it's still in Oklahoma but I've never been in Tulsa for more than a weekend. And I'm quite anti-social most of the time. I'm staying with my best friend's parents. I hope I don't feel awkward walking around their home. I'm the kind of person that stays in their room so the only time I would be in the way would be for dinner. I don't know why I'm worried about that. I worry way too much.
I was lying in bed trying to sleep but all I could think about was what I need to take with me. So I grabbed a notebook and jotted down some things and the list kept growing as did my stress. Nothing is going to be left in stillwater for when I come to visit Riley! I know I'm stressing over petty things, I just can't help it. I don't plan on coming to Stillwater often because gas is ridiculous and I have to drive about 30 minutes to get to work in Tulsa.
I hope Tulsa is a great experience for me this summer. It's just that everything I imagine or plan never turns out the way I thought it would so I'm constantly thinking negative things just so the outcome will be good and prove me wrong.

Riley wasn't feeling well tonight. I felt like I needed to do something so I made him muffins. From a bag. I really need to learn how to make REAL muffins. No more bag muffins. He loved them, but just imagine homemade muffins! So, I plan to learn. Cooking and baking just don't come naturally to me. I burn cookies, I drop cakes.
Boy am I down on myself tonight! I blame it on the thunderstorms. :)


  1. Dude you're going to have a blast in Tulsa. I will make sure of it! Let me know once you get here.

  2. Tulsa is practically Las Vegas compared to Stillwater. I remember my days living there...with the 24hr walmart and the bookstore as my only entertainment ;) I didnt stay there long before I was scurrying back to graduate at OSU-Tulsa.
    It will be fine!